Lucy Holden is sort of like my alternate persona....if I were someone else completely, nothing like myself I would be Lucy. Since blogging isn't something I would normally do, I decided I should be Lucy for this...makes it easier knowing that the real me isn't out there on display.
I (and I think Lucy agrees) love Paranormal Romance, Dark fiction - whatever you want to call it. It makes me happy and entertains me. I don't like normal romance books, they aren't real. But Fantasy romance, well of course that isn't real - it has fantasy in the name :-) so its okay that there are vampires and demons and angels and wereanimals existing alongside people. Occasionally I think - really if vampires existed would they really just become pretty. I haven't ever made a decision about that. Luckily there are writers who have. Laurell K Hamilton - she doesn't think just because you become the undead you are allowed to be beautiful and she has characters who have physical flaws, but we love them anyways. I just finished reading Veil of Midnight by Lara Adrian.
As well as reading fantasy romance books, I read other stuff as well. I also just finished To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee, for the second time in my life. It really affected me this time. Maybe its because I miss Tennessee a little or just the south in general (its where I lived before the UK), but actually I think its more because Scout is a child and maybe I miss childhood. While stuff wasn't necessarily easier when I was a kid (or I didn't think so at the time) there was more freedom and loads of potential. The thing about potential is the more you grow up the less you seem to feel that you have. It becomes harder and harder to believe, have other people believe in you and be able to afford changing your life completely. Which as a child you could have done in an instant just deciding that day that you wanted to be a dancer or the President instead of what you were the day before. I guess we have to grow up sometimes, but why does growing up always have negative connotations. My husband loves his job, why can't we all? I am looking for jobs and a career right now, and its hard to look back and see all that I wanted to be and then look forward again not knowing if I will even be able to get a job (much less a career that I want) here in Hong Kong.
I don't regret moving though - its really too early to say that (since I only got here in January). I really like Hong Kong and I want to get to know it like I got to know London. I loved London, it would speak to me sometimes when I was walking alone on the Southbank thinking. I guess that's what I miss, a city that speaks to me. Maybe Hong Kong can be that for me again.
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