Saturday, 2 October 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 3 - What I forgive myself for

I am going to get straight into this one. I have to forgive myself for the fact I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

I spent four years at high school, 3.5 years at university and then 3 years working in London only to know what I don't want to do. The list of things I don't want to do has slowly been increasing over time (including things like postal officer, any retail job, sales, or working for a lawyer ever again) but I am still lost when it comes to something I could do for any extended period of time.

Recently with my move to Hong Kong and much alone time I have realised that I am just going to do things that make me happy for now. Like working for the Riding for Disabled or painting or dancing flamenco. I know that none of these will lead to a career and maybe that is okay, maybe its not. But what I do know is that I am tired of hating every job I have and for now I don't have to do anything I hate (thanks to my wonderful husband – who incidentally loves his job). So I am taking this opportunity to do things I love. I only wish other people had an opportunity to do this as well.

Who knows what will happen next and while I haven't completely forgiven myself for having no future – I have accepted it for now.

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